Wishes.

Happy Birthday mom.

Sorry for making you mad on this very day.
I hate seeing you getting upset over dad & Matt,
so remember, I am always there for you.
We girls should stick together. (:

God Bless,
I love you.



Even if sometimes you're like a pain in the ass. ;)

Everything...but nothing.

The world is not fair. Accept that.


After working our asses off for two years,

all that planning,

skipping class,

mind cracking,

depressing exam results,

complaints,


In the end...

Utterly meaningless.



It was all for nothing.

Down the drain it goes.

Our effort.



Still,
I was expecting/ thinking that this might happen..

but I didn't imagine the change to be this drastic.

Or feeling as if a knife sliced through my heart.

Or feeling as if I had two sides to choose:

What my mind tells me... or my heart.

Or like we almost lost a dear friend.



All I can say is the hurt runs a little less deeper for me,

as I have already decided to put my distance since
the end of last year.

But for some, is like a stab right in the back.

And I finally,wholly and totally understood what the others were feeling then last year.



To say that I am totally fine,

that would be a lie through my teeth.

To say that I am totally distraught,

no, it is not that bad.



All this thinking is really depressing.

But, what to do?

Reality really slaps you in the face.

But, at least now I can put all my heart and soul to the YR '09 Team.

NO more prefect worries, no more stress!

I know God has a plan for me. (:

It's time to put the past behind,

no more dwelling in unhappy thoughts!

The future, is what that really counts.

And He will always be at my side.

I say. (:

I am so glad everything's out.
The weight has lifted and the suffocation's over.
All I can say is hopefully, everything will fall into place.
=/



I say. (:

I didn't fail my physics.
*gasp.
And I thought I would.
Considered all I studied for it, getting an A2 is an utmost shock.
.....
A blessing.

Something worth fighting for.

Sigh. I seem to be sigh-ing a lot these days.

I am just one of the thousand poor souls that just wished
that school didn't have to start.



But,
what is there to stop reality when it smacks you in the face.
Hmm. Well, at least I didn't fail my moral.
Hee.



Still,
I LOST MY SPECTACLES CASE
WITH MY SPECS IN IT!!!
ARGHHHH!!!!



*mentally curses me-idiotic-self



Yes, wtf.
Yes, why you so careless.
Yes, my specs REALLY is lost.
Yes, my eyes actually grow on my rear end. But, please...



IF YOU SEE IT, OR KNOW WHO ON
EARTH REARRANGED THE TABLES IN MUA CLASS,
PLEASE.. use that God-given mouth to SPEAK UP!



P.S.: Specially addressing to those from school.



Ahem, where were we?
Oh yeah.



Today was a complete waste of time.



All the teachers were like giving out results and then... doing nothing.
Okay, results ARE important but trust me,
you would rather skip school at any rate 'cos it was soooooo boring.



Maybe I just feel that way because when
I start stoning or daydreaming, I think of
'where are thou o beautiful one, my darling spectacles....'
Y-yes. You get the drill.



The only distraction was Marion's and Esther's
antics regarding their superb
mindset of
"Lizzie, that sounds wrong." Giggle, giggle and more giggles.



Okay so I admit that eyeballs sound wrong when I say it.
And yes, 'my eyes feel like balls' do sound weird and
leads to certain mental pictures.
But hey, saying ' Marion, I want you to do something.'
is NOT wrong.



You guys just have over-imaginative imaginations,
plus its is ahem, not, ahem, very clean.
Cough cough.



Meh. Not that I am complaining much.
At least its a funny topic. (:



Still, our King of Silliness has gone away to Catholic High.
Bye Kar Hei! Munn Kitt misses you very badly!
Come back and visit your partner (inside joke) soon okie!
He even offered to take all your exam papers for you!
Estee also still has your beautiful memoirs captured in drawings
done most lovingly by Leigh-andra!



Even so,
it still didn't stop the group of us inclusive of Nat and Danielle
talking about things that really sound wrong (heavily implied element).


Fishballs, bananas, watermelons, coconuts....


I am sure you get my point.
Oh yeah. Nearly forgot.



MarionLizzie

I wanna read a book.
What kind of book?
Err. Action.
OH. *starts laughing. Estee also follows cue.
What?!
That sounds wrong too. *laugh laugh laugh.



For a moment I was bewildered...


Action? Wrong meh?
Oh.
Wtf.
They mean tut action.
-___-"



Sat bai larh.
I mean action like Harry Potter-ish action.
Not whatever that went through your heads then laaa.



Still, at least I stopped brooding about my specs.
Hopefully, some teacher will announce it tomorrow during assembly.

*crossing fingers.

I know, despite the incredulous odds.

=]


Look on the bright side, no?

It is these times when I feels that all my sacrifices,
scoldings received, worries are worth the trouble.



Like seeing two pairs footsteps on the sand,
I know He was there journeying with me.
And He was there to pick me up when I fall
and when I was most vulnerable.

Empty.

Holidays are almost over.

Know what?

My brains have turned into mush. No kidding.

Eat, sleep, tv, surf...

That's all I did.

Sigh.



Actually, I almost went to Cameron with Jas & family.

Or went somewhere else, for that matter.

But, a certain someone refused,

saying 'It's so expensive booking last minute. I will not pay such money.'


Blah.


Do you not know the meaning of holiday?

With family no less.

It's not as if we are dead poor.

So what does it matter if mom sulks at all?

She wants her holiday too.

And so do I.

Is money that important?

More important than family?!

I just don't see how it is like you.

Awake.

Things just doesn't seem your way when your head

feels like it weighs a staggering thousand tonnes,

your ears get blocked and everything you hear sounds muffled,

you spend your days enduring the pain of a sore throat

and when you cough like almost every few minutes.



Yes, I am sick. Woe is me.

*croak.

Drama Day Camp.

Very unforgettable.
Very.


Trust me, I cannot look straight into Victor's face ever again...



ColinKirtonme

Now I want you to layan him..

NOOOOOOO!!! *Starts banging fists on the wall, face slowly turning scarlet.

...you're just a big flirt as he is.. *grin



Okayy.
I shall only blog this excruciating part of the camp.


So, at the end of camp, we had to perform a little scene.

We were split into groups of A & B and memorized a script that Colin handed out to us.

Basically, we were just supposed to memorize our lines and Colin will randomly pick out an A and B and they will act based on a scenario that he will say then.


The script goes,
A: xxxxx
B: xxxxx
.....


Anyway, I was acting with Victor.
Colin told us that we were total strangers who met on the bus, however, Victor is a BIG flirt.


Joy.


So I acted as the annoyed/disgusted female whose sub line is 'BUG OFF, MISTER!'
At the first take, I kept moving the chair to the side, and Victor acted as a shy flirt.
So Colin said, bus seats don't actually move and whispered to Victor to ante up his game while the rest of us were roaring with laughter.


So goes take two. Victor: BIG flirt/ Me: Don't-bother-me female


Anyhow, Colin was trying to let everyone know the different 'feel' of the scene after you add a different element to it.


So take three: Colin told me to layan him.


You can guess how it went down.
After the scene, I practically ran and covered my face with my book while everyone else was cheering and laughing.


Lizzie Chang especially was my personal teaser.
She kept gesturing to Victor even at mass yesterday.
Evil nyaa.


But, camp was fun, even with the embarrassing scene.
(: